My Latest Lesson Learned

I am hoping to gain insights into myself as I progress on my journey to let go of 100+ pounds.  I am looking at food choices, especially my comfort foods, to learn why it is I choose those items over healthier alternatives.  I have started to recognize some of the events that occur in my life that trigger eating unconsciously and now have to learn how to handle those events differently.

One of the most important things I've learned is that I cannot follow someone elses food plan.  It has to be my own plan.  I have to be able to incorporate the foods that I love, albeit less often or less volume. 

My latest lesson learned has to do with food choices and it is actually quite amusing to notice my mind arguing with itself over those choices.  For the most part, I have allowed myself anything I want as long as it fits into my calorie plan.  I have noticed myself choosing healthier options due to calorie counts (with the exception of the chip episodes). 

I surprised myself the other day, after some internal arguing, by choosing vegies and a little ranch dip over some plain tortilla chips with salsa (which I don't have an obsession with) because a) I wanted more volume than what those 10 chips would provide and b) I knew the vegies would be better for me.  Now, if I was following some diet, the choice would have been made for me, it would have said to have those vegies with a little ranch dip.  I probably would have rebelled, eaten what I wanted and then would have thought I blew the whole thing and then ordered a pizza since the day was ruined.  I guess there is more rebel in me than I realized.  Hmmm, interesting (at least it is to me).  Isn't it funny what just sitting down to write will bring out?

Have any of you experienced anything like this?

Thanks for reading, and hopefully following, the ramblings of The Tortoise's Weigh!